Sat Sept 10 2011 My thoughts on 9/11

Hello friends.
Those of you who know me at all know I am always happy and positive.  But I must admit that Sept 11 deeply affected me. I am an american and I love my God and my country. I love what our founding fathers did for us and I love the freedoms our military affords us. If this does not make sense to you then you do not have an idea about being an american. I remember being on the phone with my friend Claudette when the second  plane crashed through the twin towers, I was watching it on TV. Tj wasn't home at the time, he was at a friends store running errands. I didn't know what to think and my neighbor came over and we were both in shock as things progressed into the Pentagon and the Plane that was taken over.
When Tj got home the first thing he said is Osama Bin Laden was behind it.  As the days progressed I was thankful for a President like Bush because all I could think of is he kept us safe. Him and our military. I remember thinking OMG if Gore was president he would sit back and think we could all get along.

Some of you have no idea but a lot of the porn industry lost approx 1/3 of its income the day after sept 11.  Thats another story all together but to those of us that dotted our I's and crossed our T's it wasn't fair.
I still would rather have safety over money and thats what happened in the next few days.

Bush did warn them that we were coming, we did not have warning that they were coming. (OK maybe Clinton had an idea but I am speaking of the actual happenstance of the day of 9/11.)

So .....how did it affect you? This is my story...
The next few days I had  my sisters birthday and I felt guilty saying "Happy Birthday". How could you say Happy anything? I took her gift to her house and left it before she got home so I didn't have to be happy sad or anything.
The next few weeks as Tj and I tried to film our updates I would be filled with tears and have to try again.
I felt guilty that I still had my children and they still had me. The guilt about my living children went on for months.

10 years has gone by and I have watched our country lose control as the days go by.  Honestly how could a president be put into office with no military background when we are at war? That is just stupid 101.  People wanted a change and those of us who live week to week (and I do know that lifestyle .... it is a choice by bad decisions period) thought a change meant more money. Well not only did it not mean more money it also meant we have a president that is not a Christian.  That should scare you to death in our world.

You may think, me, as a "pornstar" (yes I do porn, am I a star?....not in my mind) would not concern myself with faith. Being an educated person who has studied many religions and knows that what God expects of us is love (and if I have a flaw it is I love too much) and I know that His son died because he knows humans are sinful and cannot be perfect so we are forgiven because and only because His son died for us Does it mean what I do is OK? No it means I am on a path and I struggle.

Anyway....our country is headed for terrible things if we do not get back to our foundation. Please heed that warning. In no time we will have enough muslim voters to take over. Muslims claim they are peaceful. I attended an 8 week islamic education in MI where the head of the Arab American League made sure our knowledge was correct.  My father is fron Dearborn MI, google it, it is the largest arab population in our country.
I witnessed a young woman who chose to become a Christian and THE ONLY REASON SHE WAS NOT SENT BACK TO THE OLD COUNTRY TO BE KILLED IS BECAUSE SHE WAS BORN IN THE USA SO HER PARENTS COULD NOT DO IT.  HER VERY OWN PARENTS WERE WILLING TO KILL HER.


Anyway again, I plan to spend tomorrow praying to a God I know is faithful and is of love and never changing.
Did you know you can spend a life in islam and when you get to there "heaven" they decide if you go to get your virgins? And women do not go to heaven period, WOMEN DO NOT COUNT AT ALL. In Christianity if you know in your heart of hearts and have a relationship with our Lord you are going to heaven. Our Lord the one and only knows whats in your heart. This supposed alah is ever changing and decides IF you get there.

We cannot be perfect so please choose Christ.

With Christian love for my neighbors as our Lord expects.
xo
R

Do not forget our past and present military and the families they leave. It is because of them we sleep safely at night.